its seems really strange that i've become the beast that i am. a huge wonder in a small town, a gaping hole in a skinny thin world. all i want to be is thin. so thin that i'm a stick. so thin that i won't have to feel. so thin that i might actually have friends. thin enough for my family to be proud. thin enough to live.
height: 5'6"
sw: 220 cw: 220 ugw: 125
200 185 170 162 150 140 130 120
things that i have been up to since uni ended:
- wallowing in self pity
- hating myself
- sleeping
- pacing around my house
- flew out to alberta
- joined a running clinic
- started a cleanse
- drinking water 24/7
- got an interview at starbucks
things are beginning to look up. i’ve been in denial and lacking serious motivation for so long now; enough is enough.
